Category: my dear melancholy

The morning “From the morning to the eve…

The morning 

“From the morning to
the evening

Complaints from the
tenants

Got the walls kicking
like they six months pregnant”

We fucked all night up
until this morning. I’m diggin you out from the inside making you scream in sweet
agony. 

“Drinking Alize with
our cereal for breakfast

Girls calling cabs at
dawn quarter to seven”

It’s after a crazy night
and my place is filled with model type females. They catch their rides home and
try to recover. 

“Sky’s getting cold,
we flying from the north

Rocking
with our city like a sold out show”

Canadian born and raised
so all I know is how to be cold towards you. And every night in my city is
a stadium filled arena with nothing but my people and my fans that love me.

“House full of hoes
that specialize into hoe-in

Make that money rain as
they taking off they clothes”

The only girls I care
about only care about me when I’m making them rich. 

“Order plane
tickets, Cali is the mission

Visit every month like
I’m split life living”

It’s like I have a double
life: the world I know there and he people that know me in it is nothing like
the world I’ve created for myself here. But I wanna know

“Let the world
listen if our haters caught slipping

Then my niggas stay tight

Got my back like
Pippen”

Everyone is going to hear
me, finally. And if anybody has a problem with that, they can get laid out real
quick. 

“Fast life gripping
Yeah we still tipping

Codeine cups paint a
picture so vivid

Face try to mimic, get
girls timid

But behind closed doors they
get poles so rigid”

I’m moving at a very
quick pace, but I know I can handle it. Drugs control how I perceive the world,
and with them, I envision things differently. I find the most innocent girls
and tap into their true selves. They’ll be turning tricks and sucking dicks by
the end of the night

“All
that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money is the motive”

Im motivated
by the amount of mony I make, nothing more, nothing less.

“All that money, the money she be folding
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work”

And these
girls are motivated by it too it seems.

“Push
it to the limit, push it through the pain
I push it for the pleasure like a virgin to the game
A virgin to that money, a virgin to the fame”

I step outside
my comfort zone to get to where I want. It’s a struggle, but worth it. Sometimes
it becomes a little too much, but the reward is so satisfying.

“So this my only chance so when I’m over only pray
That I flow from the bottom, closer to the top
The higher that I climb, the harder I’ma drop”

I hope
that as long as I can stay on top, I’ll be good, but what worries me is that
the father I get up the pedestal, but more people will try to tear me down, and
if I fall, that’s it.

“These pussy ass niggas trying to hold on to their credits
So I tell em use a debit watch they image start to lessen”

All these
other niggas out here that wanna compete with me are just flashing what they
think people want to see. When it all comes down to it, they don’t have anything to flaunt.

“I don’t wanna ‘em like discretion, why these niggas testing
Always fucking testing, why these niggas testing”

If they
think they can hang with me, they’ve got another thing coming.

“Shit that I got ’em on, straight bar hopping to the music of the ambiance
Get shit poppin’”

Meanwhile,
my artistry has the whole world bumpin’, vibin’ on some new shit they didn’t
even know they were missing.

“Zombies
of the night
Niggas ain’t talking if they hyping to the crew, get it in like pockets”

Leave them
all slumped to my sound; high off pure, raw music. And if they corporate, they
can all get a piece.  

“Downtown loving, when the moon coming
Only place to find base heads and high women”

We living
it up in the city, all night, every night. It’s the only place in the world
where everything you could ever want and need is all in one place, always…

“All
that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money is the motive”

“All that money, the money she be folding
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work”

“Better
slow down, she’ll feel it in the morning
Ain’t the kind of girl you’ll be seeing in the morning”

Be gentle
with her; it’s the least you can do. but regardless, you’ll probably never see her
again after this.

“Too damn raw ain’t no nigga worth her holding
Ain’t no nigga that she holding man her love is too damn foreign”

She’s
had her fair share, she’s been around, and we all know it, but she’s still just
a girl, and she still has her needs as we do ours. As long as you give her what
she wants, shell take care of you.

“Look at all that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money she be folding”

All this
cash you give her for her service, all that money she’s collected and keeps.

“Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work”

She may
be just a girl, but she can hustle with the best of them any day…

“All that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money is the motive”

“All that money, the money she be folding
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work”

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xo

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10.31.18

Regular

Odd look

“Your hesitation speaks to me louder than million words per minute

I was born to this life you’re living, in this game”

The fact that you have to think these decisions through tells me you’re not really use to this, nor are you ready for it. Me on the other hand, i was created to survive in this.

“Said nothing will ever be… ever be the same, when you’re finished

I freed a couple of souls, just yesterday”

After your experience tonight, you’ll never be the same. And for the ones who were here before you, let’s just say they’re liberated.

“I got a good girl in my room, no tats on her skin

I put work all in her purse, she got guilt all in her grin”

I have someone in my vicinity now who’s known for playing it safe; after a slid her a few stacks, maybe a pill or two there’s nothing she won’t do for me, even if it means she’ll hate herself afterwards.

“And I swear it be the same, every fuckin’ where that I been

All you girls try to be saints, I’ll make you all wanna sin”

And it’s like this with every girl i meet, everywhere i go. They all want to keep their good girl reputations but after a night with me, all of that is gone.

“Well

You can come to my hotel, you can bring me a friend

You can dress up like twins, I can teach you some French”

So grab your best girlfriend, both of y’all come through, let’s have a little role playing session and i can show you a few tricks.

“Paper planes full of kush, a couple cups full of gin

Don’t know what city I’m in, wake up and do it again”

I’ll get you high, I’ll get you drunk, I’ll get you feeling good; even if i cant tell you where I’m at or who I’m with i know that I’d rather be doing this than anything else.

“And if you know me well, I don’t like to talk

But when I make a move, you know it’s loud as fuck

And if you wanna scream, get loud as fuck baby

I can tell you’ve earned a bit of deconstruction

A little bit, a little bit”

I’m not the most social person around but my work makes up for what i lack in conversation. You seem to fit the role for my time of regular, so feel free to express your pleasure however you want. It’s a little chaotic but you’re starting to embrace it slowly but surely.

“Your hesitation speaks to me louder than million words per minute

I was born to this life you’re living, in this game”

“Said nothing will ever be… ever be the same, when you’re finished

I freed a couple of souls, just yesterday”

“Do you feel like you’ll come back around?

Does it make you strong?

Do you feel like you can take the planet on?”

How are you feeling? Indestructible? On top of the world? Immortal maybe? It’s a glorious feeling isn’t it?

“Did I seem to give you a little bit more love?

To your lonely life, to your empty life

Little life, little life”

Am i making your once miserable life more tolerable? And i giving you what you want? What you need? What you asked for?

“Do you feel like you got your money’s worth?

Cause if you did this round’s on me

Just promise that you’ll come back to me

Feed me, baby, feed me, baby”

Was i worth the wait? Your time? Your energy? Your love? If so I’ll buy us another round. But promise me one thing; if i sis you justice, stay with me, be mine forever, or at least if you can give me what i want from you whenever i crave it…

“Your hesitation speaks to me louder than million words per minute

I was born to this life you’re living, in this game”

“Said nothing will ever be… ever be the same, when you’re finished

I freed a couple of souls, just yesterday”

My Dear Trilogy

My Dear Trilogy

Regular

Heaven or Las Vegas

“I’m paying for all my father’s sins

So I’ma thank him for you

I’ma thank him for you”

My fathers regrets has latched onto me. Rather see them as a burden, i see them more as a blessing.

“My serotonin’s gone a while to go

Girl, it’s gone cause of you

It’s been gone cause of you”

That thing in my head that makes me feel good ran out at about the same time you walked in the room.

“They say, they want heaven

They say, they want God

I say, I got heaven

Well I say, I am God”

These girls here, they say that they want to experience serenity and infinite happiness and they want a man that can provide that. I tell then that this world we’re in now, with the drugs and alcohol and wild sex and last night lurking is that safe haven for them and in the savior they’re been searching for.

“I never prayed a moment in my life

Girl I’m rewarded with you

I’ve been rewarded with you”

I’m not too religious and I’ve never asked god for anything. Maybe that’s why we ended up here together.

“So baby let me kiss your inner thigh

Let me kiss it for you

I can kiss it for you”

If you let me, i can pleasure in a way you might like but you have to trust me.

“They say, they want heaven

They say, they want God

I say, I have heaven

I say, I am God”

I know what you’re looking for, and i know you won’t find it here. But i can give you something to replace that empty feelings and longing for a better place. Just let me in; let me have you…

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Birthday suit“Here’s a special cak…

Birthday suit

“Here’s a special
cake…

Watch me throw it in the
air

Pocket full of 1’s with
the zeros in a pair

Find myself staring at
your waist…

On my superman shit, X ray
vision while you shaking those tits”

I got s gift for you.
Straight 100 dollar bills. I can’t stop staring at you’re body; the way your
body moves, shakes, jiggles, it’s mesmerizing

“I just wanna see you
in your birthday suit

Take it all off, I don’t
wanna see you baby in those clothes

In your birthday suit,
don’t be scared

Kissing on your skin, girl
before we begin

In your birthday suit

Take it all off, I don’t
wanna see you baby in those clothes

In your birthday suit,
don’t be scared

Kissing on your skin, girl
before we begin ”

I want you undressed. Let
me watch you take you clothes off. Totally exposed. Don’t be afraid, or
nervous. Let me press my lips against your body and taste you. I wanna get you
there. 

 

“Baby it’s your special day…
You already know paddle in a boat while I make
your river float
Baby you gonna make me take a break
Back at it again, money ain’t a thang, baby I
made it this way”

This day is all about you.
So I’m going to make sure to take extra special care of you; hitting every spot
just the way you like it. Although I have to be honest, you’re quite a challenge.
If I get too exhausted I might have to take five, but it won’t be long until
I’m up and running again and ready to go.

“So just get
In your birthday suit
Take it all off, I don’t wanna see you baby in
those clothes
In your birthday suit, don’t be scared
Kissing on your skin, girl before we begin
In your birthday suit
Take it all off, I don’t wanna see you baby in
those clothes
In your birthday suit, don’t be scared
Kissing on your skin, girl before we begin”

 

“Girl take off your
outfit, call my place a dressing room

I be on that pussy but
before my mind’s undressing you”

Once we get back to me
place, feel free to get undressed. I’ve already striped you in my mind, now I’m
ready to really see

“My stride Martin Luther with the brain like Luther
Kryptonite in my pants go ahead go super”

I have  strong mentality with an
even strong will to do bad things, but im also ready to defuse with you, so lts
get to it.

“Ya man do you wrong,
like he printed out a typo

Your body so crack should
be whiter than albino

Your body so crack got me
horny like a rhino

Shit, I know you seen wood
like pine glow”

Your ex is a aint shot ass
dude. The way he treated you was bogus. You got a frame  that’s
addictive, almost intoxicating. You got me on hard constantly. I know you can
feel it and see what I got. 

“Trust me when I say I keep you sacred like chi lo
Trust me when I say I satisfy you till the night go”

I treasure you, please belive that. Youre a goddess, a temple,
something sacreed and saveored to me and if you let me, ill prove it to you.

 

“Girl you already
know the best damn part is

Get you on your back, wax
you like Kelly Clarkson

Officers bad girl, you’re
so wanted

To be honest, I have a
rocket in my pocket

Won’t you want it baby, I
just want you on it”

The highlight of the night
is when I get you on your back and screaming my name. You’re most desired than
a worthless criminal, I gotta have you to myself. And if I can be honest with
you, this is locked, cocked, loaded, and ready to go. I want you to ride it, I
wanna get inside it. Let me feel you. Do you want to?

 

“In your
birthday suit
Take it all off, I don’t wanna see you baby in those clothes
In your birthday suit, don’t be scared
Kissing on your skin, girl before we begin
In your birthday suit
Take it all off, I don’t wanna see you baby in those clothes
In your birthday suit, don’t be scared
Kissing on your skin, girl before we begin
In your birthday suit
Take it all off, I don’t wanna see you baby in those clothes
In your birthday suit, don’t be scared
Kissing on your skin, girl before we begin
In your birthday suit
Take it all off, I don’t wanna see you baby in those clothes
In your birthday suit, don’t be scared
Kissing on your skin, girl before we begin,
In your birthday suit, birthday suit”

Regular

Regular

Rockin’

“People always talk about the ones that got away

I just seem to get the ones that always want to stay

I’m just too distracted with the life I’m tryna paint”

It seems like the biggest problem with people is that they always miss their opportunity, but not for me. The ones i mess with never want to leave me but i honestly don’t have the time for it.

“Say, I got all these women too attracted to the fame

Not too many niggas that will end up in the way

Nothing’s gonna stop me, I’mma get it either way”

These females only want me so they can be in the spotlight. And these guys aren’t even on my level. Regardless, I’m going to excel.

“Why would you wanna take away from this moment? We can own it

Why would you wanna take away from this moment?”

Instead of worrying about things outside of your control, why not just live for the now?

“You don’t have to spend your life with me

You don’t have to waste your energy

We can just be rockin’, yeah

We can just be rockin’, yeah”

This doesn’t have to be forever. We can just exist for tonight. Just love your life; so whatever you want. I wont judge i promise.

“I just want your body next to me

‘Cause it brings me so much ecstasy

We can just be rockin’, yeah

We can just be rockin’, yeah, yeah, yeah”

You feel so good to me, i just want you until I’m worn out. And i want you to enjoy yourself with me.

“You see me texting, baby, you see those missed calls

I’m actin’ reckless baby, I’m ’bout to lose it all”

Please don’t ignore me. I’m begging for your attention. I need it or else I’ll go crazy.

“This liquor got me crazy, mixed with that Adderall

I’m focused on the beat”

I’m already off my rocker. I need you, please.

“Why would you wanna take away from this moment? We can own it

Why would you wanna take away from this moment?”

“You don’t have to spend your life with me

You don’t have to waste your energy

We can just be rockin’, yeah

We can just be rockin’, yeah”

“I just want your body next to me

‘Cause it brings me so much ecstasy

We can just be rockin’, yeah

We can just be rockin’, yeah (We can just be rockin’, baby)”

“Why would you wanna take away from this moment? We can own it

Why would you wanna take away from this moment? Woo-hoo!”

“You don’t have to spend your life with me (You don’t have to spend your life with me)

You don’t have to waste your energy (You don’t have to waste)

We can just be rockin’, yeah (Oh, baby)

We can just be rockin’, yeah (All you got to need to know)”

“I just want your body next to me (Hey!)

‘Cause it brings me so much ecstasy

We can just be rockin’, yeah

We can just be rockin’, yeah

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)”