Category: my dear melancholy

xo

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Rescue you 

“Saw my signal from afar

Lonely heart sitting at the bar

I’ma try to save you from his flames”

I could sense you, reaching out to me. Trying to get in touch
with me. Your ex, he did you bad. Maybe I can help with that. 

“Come with me, you don’t have to think

Had a long day I could tell by your drink

Take a look at me, I promise I will be,

All the things you wanted him to be”

I can sooth your thoughts for a while. You’ve had it rough, your
drink is strong. I know you can tell already that I can treat you better than
he could

“Do you, always seem to fight cause I, can tell

Wipe away ‘em tears and I,

Can help, help you through your misery,

Hospitality that you need from me”

The two if you don’t get along, at all. He hurts you
emotionally. I know what it is you need, and that’s someone that’ll make you
smile more and cry less

“And, girl, I can hear the pain inside, your voice

Argue every night, but that’s a choice and I can take it all
away”

It hurts to even bring it up. I’ll give you a choice, now; go
back home to him and live miserably, or some with me instead

“Let me rescue you,

I can see the truth

I can see right through the pain

Let me rescue you,

Let me fill his shoes,

No more tears running down your face”

Let me save you. Don’t lie to me and tell me you’re happy, it’s
clear that you’re missing something. I can give you something so much better.
Let me prove it to you

“I can take you there,

Girl, fly you through the air

Girl, I can be your superhero

Fly you through the stars

Let me light up your darkness

I can be your superhero”

I can take you away from all this; his lies, his pain, his
ignorance. I can give you everything you wanted. But you have I let me
in. 

“Tryna free you from his cage,
It’s a mental prison break
Baby, we can leave, my heart is the key”

It’s been a tough road but here we are. I’ve been
doing my best to get you out of your situation and into a more comfortable one,
hopefully starring me. I can give you my love in the mean time to replace what
you’ve lost.

“You’re a damsel in distress
Looking at your eyes I can see the stress
Take a look at me, promise I will be
All the things you wanted him to be”

It’s not every day I get to rescue a lady in
need. And I can tell you’re exhausted form putting on so much work and trying
so hard. But if you put your heart in my hands, I promise you, you won’t regret
it.

 

“Do you, always seem to fight cause I, can tell

Wipe away ’em tears and I,

Can help, help you through your misery,

Hospitality that you need from me.

And, girl, I can hear the pain inside, your voice

Argue every night, but that’s a choice and I can take it all
away”

“Let me rescue you,

I can see the truth

I can see right through the pain

Let me rescue you,

Let me fill his shoes,

No more tears running down your face”

“I can take you there,

Girl, fly you through the air

Girl, I can be your superhero

Fly you through the stars

Let me light up your darkness

I can be your superhero”

Wanderlust

“Is it so hard to say the same thing?
And you’re so weak to say the same thing
And burn a hole into your apprehensiveness
And let the wildfire shine”

Why should I have to ask you the same
questions over and over again. Don’t worry about a thing, we’ve both been in
this situation before. This should be easy for you by now. Just relax and cut
loose. I wont judge

“And repeat after me
Good girls go to heaven,
And bad girls go everywhere
And tonight I will love you
And tomorrow you won’t care”

Tonight’s events are routine for us. We all
know the sins we commit, the lies we’ve told, the promises we’ve broken. There’s
no room in heaven for people like us. And even though tonight I’m prepared to give
you my all and love you with everything have, in the morning you’ll leave me
and it won’t even matter enough to be a memory

“Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you. ”

You’re priceless and beautiful and he wants to lavish you the
way you deserve.

“You’re in love with something bigger than
love
You believe in something stronger than trust
Wanderlust
Wanderlust”

The wanderlust is your idea. It’s the lust that replaces love
and trust. You can’t trust anyone and you can’t love anyone but your sex is so
amazing that men throw themselves at you. You have to leave them because you can
never stay too attached. 

“Don’t you shy away from me

Just sacrifice your every last inhibition

I’m on your side

Don’t patronize

You know tonight

Is the only time we’ll have each other”

There’s no need to feel timid, I’ve explored you enough to understand
you. And we don’t have much time. Allow me to once again explore and crave you
as I’ve always done and let me make you feel something again.

“Why would you try to waste this precious time?

Cause tonight I’ll be right here

And tomorrow you won’t care”

You’re stalling for no reason. I belong to you for the night
because when the sun comes up you won’t ‘love’ me the same. 

“Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you. ”

“You’re in love with something bigger than love.

You believe in something stronger than trust.

Wanderlust

Wanderlust”

“They’re in love with this idea of love
It’s a shame that they’ll believe it will come
For us all
For us all”

And as the world watches are ‘relationship’
unfold, they pity us because they believe that all people are worthy of love
and affection, but they don’t know us too well…

“Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you.

Precious little diamond. I’ll give it all to you. ”

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2011 – 2018

Kissland

“When I got on stage, she swore I was six feet tall

But when she put it in her mouth she can’t seem to reach my

Ballin’ ain’t an issue for me

I’ll make a hundred stacks right back next week

Do it all again

I’m faded off the wrong thing, the wrong thing”

I looked like a god to you from up here, and my size was even
more overwhelming. I can blow a few thousand on you tonight and make it all
back and then some after a show. I’m on too many drugs and have had too many
drinks to think right. 

“And I’ll admit baby

I’m a little camera shy

But exceptions can be made baby, ‘cause you’re too damn fly

For what it’s worth, I hope you enjoy the show

‘Cause if you’re back here

Only takin’ pictures, you gon’ have to take your ass home”

I’m not one for taking pictures but you’re too sexy for me not
to get you to myself. So I’ll post for a photo, but if you think we’re just
gonna take a few photos and nothing else, you’ve lost your damn mind. 

“’Cause the only thing you’re takin’

Is your clothes off

Go ‘head girl, strip it down, close your mouth

I just wanna hear your body talk”

You’re gonna take your clothes off, and dance for me. I don’t
wanna hear you make a sound unless you’re moaning my name. Let your body react
the way it wants to naturally and let me make you mine. 

 

“Get
on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Oh girl, don’t hold back
Let it out

Get
on top of my thang
Get on top of my thang
Oh girl, don’t hold back
Let it out

Get
on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Don’t hold back
Let it out

Get
on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Don’t hold back

Let
it out”

 

 

 

“You can meet me in the room where the kisses ain’t free

You gotta pay with your body”

I’ll give you some of me, but only if you give me all of
you. 

 

“Not really into kisses leading into nothing
I’m into shows every night, if you play your cards right, I might
Fuck around, bring your whole crew on tour
Fuck around, turn you to my west coast girl
Until they book a show in NYC
Gotta fly back east where the city don’t sleep”

I don’t like just sitting here and making out
for 45 minutes, if I shove my tongue down your throat, I’m gonna want to shove
my dick in it next. If that what you want then come here. Do this right for me
and you’ll be my go-to girl whenever I’m in town. It’ll only last until I get a
call from New York, that place has girls like you on every corner.

“I’m tryna finish all this potion
Baby take your time, tryna sip it ’til the mornin’
And if you’re still up, I’m tryna fuck you in the mornin’
Said I’m two days strong, and never sleep until it’s mornin’,
‘Til the morning”

I don’t wanna rush the night, so keep doing
what you’re doing, just do it slower. I got a lot of lean left and I want to
make this and the feeling last. If I’m up for it, when the sun comes up, we can
do it all again. I guess you thought I was joking when I said I can go for
days.

“’cause the only thing you’re takin’
Is your clothes off
Go ‘head girl, strip it down, close your mouth
I just wanna hear your body talk, whoah oh”

“Get on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Ooh yeah, don’t hold back
Let it out

Get on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Ooh girl, don’t hold back
Let it out

Get on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Whoah oh, don’t hold back
Let it out

Get on top of that thang
Get on top of that thang
Oh yeah, don’t hold back, let it out…”

 

“I got a brand new place, I think I’ve seen it
twice all year
I can’t remember how it looks inside,
So you can picture how my life’s been
I went from starin’ at the same four walls for
21 years
To seein’ the whole world in just twelve months
Been gone for so long I might have just found
God”

I finally made it out of the small, cramped
place I was living in for the first 21 years of my life. The only problem is I haven’t
seen my new home in months. But the journey has been more than amazing; I’ve
seen the world and the beauty in it, and maybe even found myself religiously. I
have a new appreciation for this life.

“Well, probably not, if I keep my habits up and
Probably not if I can’t keep up with lovin’
And I can’t stand talkin’ to brand new girls
Only bitches down to fuck when you shower them with
ones and”

Well, if god knew about the life I was leading
now, which I’m sure he does, then he’d be ashamed of me. I don’t even give
girls my love anymore. There’s so many of them and they all want the same thing
from me, so I just give them what they want, my lust…

“Probably not if my niggas round them up and
Probably not if we take ’em to my spot
Probably not if I tweak all day, just to sleep
at night
God damn I’m high,”

And once my niggas get involved, then I probably
won’t have one girl to myself. But they’ll be sitting around us, I’ll be
sipping slow, smoking loud and sleep silently. It’s been a long few days… 

 

“my doctor told me to stop

And he gave me something to pop

I mix it up with some Adderall’s and I wait to get to the top

And I mix it up with some alcohol and I pour it up in a shot

I don’t care about you, why you worried ’bout me?”

I’m dangerously close to overdosing so I should really slow it
down. These perceptions will go perfect with this 151 and new Amsterdam. Add afew
more drugs in the mix, and that’s a recipe for one hell of a night. 

“All I want is that smoke, give me all of that
smoke
Last week was my rough week, I’m still drippin’ down from my nose”

I just want to get high and stay high. I’ve
been getting my fix but now it’s coming down. I want to relax a bit because it’s
been a long hard week, and I’ve been doing so much. I feel like I haven’t had
time to slow down, but I’m coming down now…

“And I don’t know how to drive, I make my driver get high
But If he goes under that 110, believe my driver get fired”

“And I don’t got any friends,
I got XO in my bloodwork and I’m posted up down in Florida,
Ft. Lauderdale to that MIA”

I’ve been chilling on the coast for a while, hitting
up all the hot spots while I’m trying to find myself.

“Cold drinks with Grand Marnier
To the break of dawn, Kahlua milk,
White Russian when the sun hits,”

I have mixed drinks, new shit I haven’t even
heard of but I’m downing it because it’s taking me where I want to be.

“White Russians with tongue tricks
I like the feeling of tongue rings,
She like the way my whole tongue flip,
She grind hard for tuition,
She grind hard ’til her teeth chip
I make her hide it with gold grills,
I make her suck it with gold grills,
In the back room of the VIP, she don’t ever sleep”

While at the same time, I have this sexy Russian
pleasuring me. She gives me good head, but her teeth are kinda fucked up. So I got
her a grill to help smooth it over. And she sucks me up with her grill on, and
she can go for hours. And I thought I was an all-nighter…

“This ain’t nothing to relate to
This ain’t nothing to relate to
This ain’t nothing to relate to
This ain’t nothing to relate to
Even if you tried,
You tried, you tried
And you tried
You tried, you tried
And you tried
You tried, you tried
And you tried
You tried”

This lifestyle isn’t for everyone. Not
everyone can handle the amount of drugs, alcohol, and women that we handle on
the regular. It’s intense, wild, chaotic, and almost unrealistic. It’s a scary
world that we live in, and honestly, I wonder if I’ll even survive. But I don’t
want to leave it. As crazy as it sounds, I think I really like it here…

“This ain’t nothing to
relate to
This ain’t nothing to relate to
This ain’t nothing to relate to
This ain’t nothing to relate to
Even if you tried
You tried, you tried
And you tried
You tried, you tried
And you tried
You tried, you tried
And you tried
You tried, oh…”

The morning 

“From the morning to
the evening

Complaints from the
tenants

Got the walls kicking
like they six months pregnant”

We fucked all night up
until this morning. I’m diggin you out from the inside making you scream in sweet
agony. 

“Drinking Alize with
our cereal for breakfast

Girls calling cabs at
dawn quarter to seven”

It’s after a crazy night
and my place is filled with model type females. They catch their rides home and
try to recover. 

“Sky’s getting cold,
we flying from the north

Rocking
with our city like a sold out show”

Canadian born and raised
so all I know is how to be cold towards you. And every night in my city is
a stadium filled arena with nothing but my people and my fans that love me.

“House full of hoes
that specialize into hoe-in

Make that money rain as
they taking off they clothes”

The only girls I care
about only care about me when I’m making them rich. 

“Order plane
tickets, Cali is the mission

Visit every month like
I’m split life living”

It’s like I have a double
life: the world I know there and he people that know me in it is nothing like
the world I’ve created for myself here. But I wanna know

“Let the world
listen if our haters caught slipping

Then my niggas stay tight

Got my back like
Pippen”

Everyone is going to hear
me, finally. And if anybody has a problem with that, they can get laid out real
quick. 

“Fast life gripping
Yeah we still tipping

Codeine cups paint a
picture so vivid

Face try to mimic, get
girls timid

But behind closed doors they
get poles so rigid”

I’m moving at a very
quick pace, but I know I can handle it. Drugs control how I perceive the world,
and with them, I envision things differently. I find the most innocent girls
and tap into their true selves. They’ll be turning tricks and sucking dicks by
the end of the night

“All
that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money is the motive”

Im motivated
by the amount of mony I make, nothing more, nothing less.

“All that money, the money she be folding
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work”

And these
girls are motivated by it too it seems.

“Push
it to the limit, push it through the pain
I push it for the pleasure like a virgin to the game
A virgin to that money, a virgin to the fame”

I step outside
my comfort zone to get to where I want. It’s a struggle, but worth it. Sometimes
it becomes a little too much, but the reward is so satisfying.

“So this my only chance so when I’m over only pray
That I flow from the bottom, closer to the top
The higher that I climb, the harder I’ma drop”

I hope
that as long as I can stay on top, I’ll be good, but what worries me is that
the father I get up the pedestal, but more people will try to tear me down, and
if I fall, that’s it.

“These pussy ass niggas trying to hold on to their credits
So I tell em use a debit watch they image start to lessen”

All these
other niggas out here that wanna compete with me are just flashing what they
think people want to see. When it all comes down to it, they don’t have anything to flaunt.

“I don’t wanna ‘em like discretion, why these niggas testing
Always fucking testing, why these niggas testing”

If they
think they can hang with me, they’ve got another thing coming.

“Shit that I got ’em on, straight bar hopping to the music of the ambiance
Get shit poppin’”

Meanwhile,
my artistry has the whole world bumpin’, vibin’ on some new shit they didn’t
even know they were missing.

“Zombies
of the night
Niggas ain’t talking if they hyping to the crew, get it in like pockets”

Leave them
all slumped to my sound; high off pure, raw music. And if they corporate, they
can all get a piece.  

“Downtown loving, when the moon coming
Only place to find base heads and high women”

We living
it up in the city, all night, every night. It’s the only place in the world
where everything you could ever want and need is all in one place, always…

“All
that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money is the motive”

“All that money, the money she be folding
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work”

“Better
slow down, she’ll feel it in the morning
Ain’t the kind of girl you’ll be seeing in the morning”

Be gentle
with her; it’s the least you can do. but regardless, you’ll probably never see her
again after this.

“Too damn raw ain’t no nigga worth her holding
Ain’t no nigga that she holding man her love is too damn foreign”

She’s
had her fair share, she’s been around, and we all know it, but she’s still just
a girl, and she still has her needs as we do ours. As long as you give her what
she wants, shell take care of you.

“Look at all that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money she be folding”

All this
cash you give her for her service, all that money she’s collected and keeps.

“Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work”

She may
be just a girl, but she can hustle with the best of them any day…

“All that money, the money is the motive
All that money, the money is the motive”

“All that money, the money she be folding
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work, girl girl put in work
Girl put in work”

xo